It started with just a little question

breaking string

I was on the phone with my hosting company for one of my websites today.  My first experience was with a very nice  girl (yes, I know, but the term fits) who was oh so nice but totally screwed up the website I was working on.  And then we got disconnected.  *sigh*

So I called back and a very nice man answered.  I told him who I was working with and she was already with another customer so he said, “Let me help you”.

Hesitating I sighed, “Okay, but I don’t know if I have it in me to re-explain what’s going on”. *bigger sigh*

“Let’s try”, he said.  And so we did.

He then proceeded to undo what nice girl did and then do it right.  It didn’t work.

So then he troubleshot.  For 45 minutes.  If you’re counting you’ll know I’m now at an hour and a half.  After another 30 minutes (2 hours and counting) we were done.

The long and short of this 2 hour conversation?

My hosting company service reps are very nice.

I’m still screwed.

*biiiiigger sigh*

I think I’ve got it figured out

Jeez it took me for ever to figure out what I wanted to do with this blog.  You know, the theme, the look, the feel – all the stuff that makes up me.  How do I do that on a two dimensional plane?  Aren’t I more than that?

I need to get over myself and my belief systems that say: “I’m not creative” “I have bad taste” “All my stuff looks pedantic and boring”.

Maybe it looks boring to someone else, but I like it.  And for this venue that’s all that matters because it’s all about me, all the time. (hee hee)

I should know that I can’t force it.  I need to wait for inspiration.  Today’s inspiration came from Petunia’s photo of a cup of flower petals.  Once I saw that image that I couldn’t take my eyes off it.

She inspires me in so many ways.  Aren’t I lucky?